....I Just Crush A lot

Who remembers the days when dating was so simple? When liking someone didn't have to be so difficult.... "I like you, you like me....match made in heaven." High school.... those were the days. The days when barriers and the great wall of China didn't have to be up to protect the fragile, no quite mature, heart. I'm feeling like a kid again. It's been some years since Ive had butterflies or blushed at the thought or sight of that certain someone; I'm beginning to feel that way. I have a damn crush. I'm 22 years old with a crush?!?! WTH?! However, Greek Proverbs says, "A heart that loves is always young."

It's a sticky situation. I've never been a fan of turning good friends into lovers, being the last time I did that I lost a best friend when things went sour. I don't exactly know what to do :-/ I wonder if one of those letters that had the "check yes or no box" at the bottom would work???....only via email, twitter, or FB....sadly, that was a serious question o_0 *sigh* I'm such a sap.

The dynamics of dating definitely changes once we're no longer children. It's really unfortunate that the first thought that crosses my mind when I'm interested in someone is "What's his motive?" I really despise being defensive and protective. I'm a free spirit, and I hate to sound like a hippie but I wish the love could just flow. Let's make love, not war. I don't want to be tainted by the last and possibly ruin having someone in my life that's all around amazing.  He makes me smile, blush, giggle, nervous, giddy. I'm like a moth being drawn into the flame. I've been burnt by that fire before, but I'm willing to take the chances of being hurt again *crossing fingers*. I find myself even really enjoying the things he does, and not just because he does it.....I want to be his muse. (I'm trying to find every metaphor possible, if you cant tell).

 Not being mentally available for the past year definitely has me needing to take Dating 101 all over again. Maybe someone out there can give me a few tips?